9 more days to holiday...yippie...couldn;t wait....
this will be my reward after 1 year of hardwork..ceillee....

this will be another big group trip since the last Korea trip....with 11 people!!!!

countdown starting today!!!

i think i really need a time off from everything...
day in day out...
and the cycle keeps repeating itself..

i don;t even have time to think what i have done today...
let aside what I want to do in the future.....

arghh.........

Nice song by Corrinne May :)

Especially for the last part:
So take my five loaves and two fishes, do it as You will

I just opened up Our Daily Bread website and find this article which blessed me in a way.
Read on....

Touch down at Dublin Airport, grab a quick lunch, go to Hertz to get our rental car, check-in Hotel with very very nice room :)

Now,it is 6 in the morning and I'm sitting in front of computer, sending sms,chatting,and blogging. Been up few times since 11pm,2am,4am and by 5am, I have given up to try to sleep again!

This is the 3rd time I've been in Ireland and as expected I still have the jetlag till today. I guess I will only "recover" by Wednesday night and the great thing is I will fly back on Saturday morning and another jetlag cycle begin :S!

Putting this aside,I'm having a great time here.I went to Powerscourt at Wicklow which have a great garden house. The scenery along the way is very nice,yellowish green, those color you will expect for Fall. The weather is nice, cold with clear sky and you can feel the warm of the sun!

dah sekian lama kaga isi blog...ngga ada ide mo nulis apaan juga...
mungkin karena saking rutinnya idup....semua berjalan as per normal...ngga ada yg super exciting...or karena kitanya yg udah numb/kurang appreciate akan hal2 kecil dalam hidup?

minggu depan, daku bakal terbang ke Ireland for biz trip, karena udah pernah pergi, excitementnya dah berkurang banyak hehe...but anyway, it is a good break or at least I hope balik dari sini, my project can really kick off fast!!

As for my new "chapter" in life, i'm better keep this for myself, maap kalo ada pembaca yg kecewa wakakaka...

I just received an official wedding invitation from my friend. Well, I already know that she is going to marry in October for quite some time but what struck me is what is written in invitation.

There is short poem or story that said 8 YEARS 8 months ago when they just got together..oh no...it is been 8 years 8 months ago....

I still remember when we all teased when the guy just started came after her...the way my friend would blushed and avoid the topic haha.

Saat kita masi culun2nya pake seragam sma...dimana idealisme pacaran or type pacar yg mo kita cari wakakaka

time passed real fast...huahhhh....mencemaskan.........apakah ini gejala umur seperempat abad and ups....+ 1...

New chapter in life...
Just pray that Your Hand will always guide me
Thank you Lord

I thank God for He is faithful, in my deepest sorrow, in my most happy times, He is always with me..Thank you Lord....

Lord of all the earth
How You care for me
You have made me
You will save and carry me always

You are faithful (3x)
Your joy is my strength

Lord you are my God
I rely on You
I put my hope in things not seen
Your promises all true

Always you're with me
Your hand will lift me
My trust is in your hands
(Hillsongs)

After being so depressed and down for one whole day yesterday, finally I feel much better now.
well, thanks to my friend that console me. And suprisingly, he pointed out a point that I know all along but I just did not realized that at that time.

What he said is this: everything that you experience, whether is good or bad..well, especially the bad time, there is lesson to be learned, God may want to teach us something out of this. Sound simple, but when it happened, I was too busy to ask why things happened like this or that, lots of why and not "what you want me to learn from this".

As for this episode, i assume what i have learned this time is to keep ask God of what He want me to learn rather than why He make things happened in the way its happened.

And another sidenote for myself: He does answers prayer ;)

makin hari gua berasa makin stuck in terms of kerjaan..
padahal dulu gua "cinta" mati ama kerjaan gua,
I can feel the excitement in getting the job done, good colleagues, good boss...no complain
Sekarang, i feel so stuck, i'm not optimizing my skill or my potential.
Hari hari dilewati cuman for the sake of setor muka..bosannnnnnnn
cuman ada 1 project in hand yg keliatan bisa diharapkan...dah ngomong ama boss,minta kerjaan lebih (jarang2 kan orang minta kerjaan), tapi yah dia he-eh he-eh aja...duhhhhh
i have tried to hang on there..thinking of this weird feeling will go away after sometime
but somehow, it become worse
It is only me? or yg lain sebenernya juga berpura2 sibuk??

ga tau deh, been praying so that God give me the passion in doing the job.
that He open way for me.....

I'm venturing into a new place that I'm not familiar…
Call it an adventure but yet it is part of life journey
Feel excited but yet little bit of nervous
I don’t want to think too much..
I just want to rely of His voice to tell me if I should go on

feel stuck :'(

andaikan aku bisa baca pikiran orang
pasti kubaca pikirinmu

andaikan aku bisa ngerti isi hatimu
pasti sudah kuselidiki dari dulu

andaikan aku bisa nentuin masa depan
pasti aku bikin yg paling .. (isi sendiri lah)

andaikan andaikan.....

andaikan smuanya bener bener terjadi
hidup ngga akan seru lagi

ga ada lagi rasa deg2an, kejutan ato pun harapan
karena disitulah letak bumbu2 kehidupan

haha...error mode

Have been listening to this song for past few days. kind of "old" song...soundtrack for Music & Lyric... btw, it is a nice movie...romance, the kind that woman will like hahaha...

check out the lyric..well this is the woman singing part...which pretty much decribe how woman think :P

I’ve been living with a shadow overhead
I’ve been sleeping with a cloud above my bed
I’ve been lonely for so long
Trapped in the past, I just can’t seem to move on

I’ve been watching but the stars refuse to shine
I’ve been searching but I just don’t see the signs
I know that it’s out there
There’s got to be something for my soul somewhere

All I want to do is find a way back into love
I can’t make it through without a way back into love
And if I open my heart again
I guess I’m hoping you’ll be there for me in the end

There are moments when I don’t know if it’s real
Or if anybody feels the way I feel
I need inspiration
Not just another negotiation

All I want to do is find a way back into love
I can’t make it through without a way back into love
And if I open my heart to you
I’m hoping you’ll show me what to do
And if you help me to start again
You know that I’ll be there for you in the end

Hmmm.....

what's next....this question has popped out few times lately..
many things have happened, many goals have been reached..which I thanked God for that.
but what's next??? I'm still awaiting for His "instructions" :)

Lagi seneng..seperti kata pepatah: Badai pasti berlalu hahaha...
Jadi setelah semingguan lebih ber-bt and melo ria...now I'm back with high spirit, yeah!

Looking forward for biblecamp! As what He promised, something great is going to happen and I don;t want to miss it again.. udah plan to drop my parents somewhere at east coast, or if not, let them see how we are worshipping God setelah gagal mengajak mereka ke gereja minggu lalu...sempet kecewa...but I will keep asking!!!

Ok, 3rd entry of my blog..yeah!! Good progress here though the last entry is almost a week ago haha.....

It's been a busy week for me, busy for my work project with lots of meeting, for biblecamp, plus few news that adding spices to my already packed life.

I just realize that once we are growing older, the enthusiams of live seem decreasing along with age increase. The meaning of happiness has grown to a more complex stuff.

The realization came when I was in the gym few days back. As usual, I would pick my fave elliptical machine (similiar to bike) that face a knee depth pool and "sort of garden" with few trees and sitting area.

Typically, there will be few kids playing in the pool with their parents sitting nearby. From their face, you will know how happy they are, some are shouting, wide smile on their face. Basically, they are happy by just playing in that pool of water. It's just so simple to be happy.

Maybe we should learn more from the kids. Try to treasure every moment in life. And just be happy and content of what you have or experience. Happiness should be simple after all :)

Have been feeling down and gloomy for past few days. Lots of thinking and soul searching during this period though I'm not the type of "deep" thinker in my usual days haha

I come across this article when I was browsing Max Lucado website. It's been such a blessing for me.

Count Your Blessings

Ahhh…an hour of contentment. A precious moment of peace. A few minutes of relaxation. Each of us has a setting in which contentment pays a visit.

Early in the morning while the coffee is hot and everyone is asleep.

Late at night as you kiss your six-year-old’s sleepy eyes.

In a boat on a lake when memories of a life well lived are vivid.

In the arms of a spouse.

At Thanksgiving dinner or sitting near the Christmas tree.

An hour of contentment. An hour when deadlines are forgotten and strivings have ceased. An hour when what we have overshadows what we want. An hour when we realize that a lifetime of blood sweating and headhunting can’t give us what the cross gave us in one day—a clean conscience and a new start.

But unfortunately, in our squirrel cages of schedules, contests, and side-glancing, hours like these are about as common as one-legged monkeys. In our world, contentmen is a strange street vendor, roaming, looking for a home, but seldom finding an open door. This old salesman moves slowly form house to house, tapping windows, knocking on doors, offering his wares: an hour of peace, a smile of acceptance, a sigh of relief. But his goods are seldom taken. We are too busy to be content. (Which is crazy, since the reason we kill ourselves today is because we think it will make us content tomorrow.)

“Not now, thank you. I’ve too much to do,” we say. “Too many marks to be made, too many achievements to be achieved, too many dollars to be saved, too many promotions to be earned. And besides, if I’m content, someone might think I’ve lost my ambition.”

So the street vendor named Contentment moves on. When I asked him why so few welcomed him into their homes, his answer left me convicted. “I charge a high price, you know. My fee is steep. I ask people to trade in their schedules, frustrations, and anxieties. I demand that they put a torch to their fourteen-hour days and sleepless nights. You’d think I’d have more buyers.” He scratched his beard, then added pensively, “But people seem strangely proud of their ulcers and headaches.”

Welcome to my blog. Well, I have always declared that I'm not good in writing, or in more specific: I'm not good in expressing myself in words!

Till now, I have no idea what drives me to start my own blog. It may due to a moment of compulsion since I saw many of my friends do write blog. Since I have started this, hope this will not be my first and last entry :)